Seriously looking into foster care...

I can't believe we are actually doing this - it seems so crazy to me in some ways - like what are we thinking that we can't even see the domestic infant adoption with our agency through? And I can almost guarantee that our agency will say we can't do both at the same time and that if we want to do foster care or foster to adopt that we would have to drop out of their program. That would be a huge decision to make to determine if we'd be willing to do that or if we think that's where God is leading us.

The main thing Kris and I are on very different pages on is the age of child - Kris really talks a lot about a teenager - most likely a boy and I still would like an infant placement and we've been told by other foster parents where we live that we could specify wanting an infant or younger child and I was also very surprised to hear that with foster care infants can be difficult to place - that is so surprising to me since in our agency's domestic infant program that's all we all want - newborn babies. And I must admit I still want to experience that newborn or at least some portion of the baby stage very much.

I don't know though - I feel this urgency for some reason to find out as much as we can about the possibility of fostering. We know there's such a need and I know that Kris' whole life prepared him to be a foster parent, but I wonder about myself though? What in my life has really prepared me for fostering? I guess if it's God's will then it's been God himself preparing me in ways I haven't probably even realized yet.

And when I think about the domestic infant adoption program I really question the need for it - I mean I know in some cases there is a need and there are babies that need homes but there are so many couples waiting for these infants and not enough infants usually available and that's how it should be in that program.