Thoughts

I haven't been writing on my blog lately - I seem to even be avoiding it and I'm not sure why. Anyway - we've been having some issues with our social worker. She doesn't seem to connect with Kris at all and also seems to be projecting some of her own personal issues onto us. We really feel like she thinks Kris and I don't connect well and that we're on the same page with the adoption and it feels like it's mainly because she and Kris don't connect all that well. He's told her that he doesn't trust social workers because of all the bad homes he was put in when he was a kids in the foster care system. And it makes perfect sense but she doesn't seem to understand that and it feels like she's trying to force things with Kris. So, we started the counseling that the agency is requiring of us and it was so much better than we expected and it really reaffirmed our marriage and that we are connecting and tht Kris does sense when I need extra support. And we were even able to freely vent about our struggles with Betsy and how Kris feels blamed for some things going wrong with the match. And then there was the comment I made to Betsy about being lonely - she took that to mean I was lonely in my marriage when I'm not - I'm lonely because I don't get invited places because I don't fit into the kid filled worlds of any of my friends and they just don't think of me very often. But she said how she knew what it was like being in a lonely marriage with her ex-husband and I think that's what she thinks we have but overall at this point in our marriage we don't. It's just hard when we feel like we have to really prove ourselves and that our marriage is strong and on track just because our social worker and Kris don't connect all that well.